Far loves life.....

why must people start judging you when you pour out your emotions? the fact that i share it with you means i trust that you wouldnt hurt be by judging.. i treat you as my friend.. i never did judge you no matter how many times people said you were bad.. i always tried to understand where you are coming from.. why cant you do the same?

am i too emotional? or i have the right to be upset when i feel that people dont respect me?

the worse thing is i'm having my UT 2dae and i cant concentrate at all.......... I AM DOOMED..

u guys MUST MUST watch this japanese game show where u cant laugh... there are like 5 guys.. ENDO is hot btw.. hahahaha... 20plus parts.. so watch it when u guys are bored or sad or lonely like mi.. hahaha..

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=218764DAC916C194

GO GO GO!!!

and there are ZERO hot guys in any of my class!!! ok that's all BYEEEE..

hahahaha.. I SOOO SHOULD QUIT SCHOOL NOW SINCE I AM SOOO DUMB.. next time must slack more.. (+) or (-) with the same alphabet also same GPA right.. for what work so hard..... haha.. i can stil afford a (-) right.. slack 30% more lah.. should be technically enough.. haha..
see lah.. it shows that im even dumber right.. slog n slog for 110%.. still get shit.. WOW!! *applause* i shall go sign up for the hall of fame for dumb ppl.. or mayb.. i dont even qualify to get that title... OH MAN.. i sooo LOVE SCHOOL.. :D

rmb i said previously that i'll be going to skool.. TOTALLY PAID OFF ah.. hahaha.. okok i must NOT exaggerate.. in the train... ok.... at first i didnt really care coz i was sooooo TIRED of going to skool.. i mean the unnecessary journey there.. BUT SUDDENLY.. out of the corner of my eyes.. cheycheychey.. hahaha.. actually he was just sitting in front of me.... -.-" he was flipping thru notes.... memoring, recalling and all those stuff.. donno whether to call him cute/gd looking... but i tink he's both.. OMGGGGGG!! haha.. at 1st i thought he's from nyp or someting.. then something struck mi.. OK I SHALL CUT TIS ESSAY WRITING STYLE OUT.. hahaha.. he's from NTU!!!! *drools*
is this a sign of recovery? if it is, YEEPPEE!!! haha..

discovered something new abt some1 and it shocked mi.. i will try to be NOT judgemental about tis.. but WOW.. really2.. it's been awhile since i thought me and "$" were totally DIFFERENT ppl.. having a different grp of friends.. have very different perspectives as me.. abit too childish even.. amazingly.. at 1st i thought this person and me very similar.. but now i know that it was just tat 1 thing that made us the same.. other than that, we are at different ends of the world.. chasing things that at the end wont matter.. i tink i understand wat tis person is going through.. but sometimes very iritating and i don't think "$" have a mindset that i want.. ok i will stop now..

this got me thinking... what do i want in life..?? money, love, happiness? i tink it's a little bit of all 3.. but i know wat will make mi genuinely permanently happy.. let's just say... i dont need a fanciful car (even though it will be damn convenient and cool).. a big mansion... a super duper hot husband... being a minister,lawyer or any other highly paid authoritative person...
I am NOT dreaming people... ask mi this question in another 10 years.. i will still say the SAME thing... haha.. ok enough abt all this serious stuff.. it's getting me bored.. hahaha..

hearing the construction noises while blogging is VERY unpleasant so i will just stop here...

Till next time!!!! :)

my fav blog is up AGAIN... thanks for not giving it up... or at least changing ur mind about it now.. hahaha.. ;)

if u guys are wondering why my blog seems abit too gloomy recently, then im sorry lah..  im quite sure... that there will not be much of that.. i hope.. :X haha..

I'm glad that i have TOOOOO much time to relax now since there is no school.. but i MISS MY FRIENDS..!!! :( ann... feli... chong... haiya.. almost everyone lah.. too bad school and them come in a package.. haha..

Watching blood diamond now.. OMGGGG!!! i sooooo wanna like strangle all those bad ppl!!! okok.. CHILLLLLL... but i have a feeling it will be a good show.. ok.. i noe.. everyone watched it alreadi.. NVM.. lemme be in my own small world tonight.... haha..

i just dug a huge hole in my pocket this weekend.. i RARELY go shopping.. so i hope tis is a good buy.. must look pretty n fresh next sem.. ;) muahahahaha.. OMG chicky-ness!! OKOK FINE...

LAVA LAMP!!!!!!!! haizzzzz.. mayb after i graduate i will buy myself that.. haha.. wonder wic colour should i get... mayb i should get two..?? hmmmmmm... any suggestions??

so going to school 2moro.. ok dumb... some password probs... thought of borrowing bks too.. ok ppl.. im NOT STUDIOUS.. im sure u guys noe that.. but ya.. life's kinda gettin too dull and im too lazy.. so i will lift my ass 2moro n go to skool..

blog again soon ppl!!! :D:D:D

why are people so selfish..........

i randomly changed my blog skin n default pic.. coz i tot that i look fairer here.. haha.. OK FINE.. it doesnt matter...

thinking alot nowadays..... mostly unnecessary things of coz.. but i really wanna thank my friends...for being there for me.. Especially now.. since OBVIOUSLY im still walking on rocky roads... touched touched... :)

thought i just share this video...... OK VERY VERY OLD.. but nevertheless.. still great..



til 2moro.. BYE LOVELIES...

lie with me on a field of flowers... tuck a strand of my hair behind my ears and hold my hand... counting stars till we fall asleep with the breeze blowing across our faces...

Imagine having to stay in RP without internet for HOURS.. yes... just the thought of it kills.. but wateva coz now.. IT'S THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!! *skips ard* hehehe..

Summary of events for the holiday:
SLEEP
CLEAN HSE
SLEEP
CLEAN HSE
READ BOOK
CLEAN HOUSE
WATCH MOVIE
SLEEP
CLEAN HOUSE
n the predictable list goes ON AND ON.. hahaha.. notice i missed out the runningp part... coz im not commiting to just myself, but my annoying little friends that cant wait to attack mi wif it.. RIGHT?? haha.. ok KIDDIN..

I'm sooooo happy that my friends now... have beautiful lives.. okok.. to make things simplier, their love life like sooooo fulfilled.. hahahaha.. happily with people that they love or might just be happily crushing over some1.. OK PPL.. DONT WORRY.. I WONT LEECH AWAY UR HAPPINESS.. neither would i share... but in the mean time... im really really really HONESTLY very very happy for u guys.. :D:D:D

thanks for refreshing far-roo-dolski blog page and caring for me ann.. :):):) even though there were many awkward moments.. hahaha.. n the advice session didn't go so well, it made my day.. :D

You know when u read/watch romantic lovey dovery movies...... it gets abit expected that there will always be a happy ending... abit boring.. i was anticipating a happy ending again just now.. But this time, it never came...... It's AMAZING how people can sacrifice sooooo much for someone they love... In expense of their own happiness with them.... 

The ending was heart wrenching... Maybe i should tell u guys the story if you are interested of coz.. If not, u can just skip it.. haha..

John met Savannah during their own "vacation". Fell in love despite John insisting that he doesn't need female companionship.. They walked along the beach together.. Learned surfing.. Ate with John's Daddy.. OK btw, John and his daddy.. was never close at all.. John was more of a rebel.. And his dad, forever quiet and seemed to be in his own world.. talking about his coin collection...

I think i forgot to tell u guys that John is a US soldier. He had to be away 1 yr or 6 months at 1 time... When John left... They wrote letters of coz.. And they have this routine.. Which is to everytime remember what they had when there is a full moon.. Sadly, when they finally met again... they fought... argued... and grew more distant..... No doubt they still love each other.... but John en-listed into the army longer coz of September 11.. From there.. the letters Savannah wrote became lesser and lesser... Finally... She wrote a letter telling him that she fell in love with some1 else...

Years passed and John's daddy became sick and passed on.. He sold the house and without wait, he went to look for Savannah since he had nothing to look forward anymore..... They met again... This time... Her life was a mess.. Her husband... was terribly sick but they didnt have enough money to treat him.. They both still loved each other... but obviously... she also love her husband..

In the end, before he left for army again.. John and Savannah met for the very last time.... She ask if they could write to each other again.. But John said no.. And when she ask if they will meet again, he said he was hoping that they wont.. because that would mean that her husband is all right and he had no reason to come back when she is happy without him..

The last part!!!!! He sold his dad's coin collection to pay for Savannah's husband annoymously.. And he was thinking whether he made a right decision or not.. Letting the love of his life go... Selling his dad's prized possession..... So he sat on a hill near her ranch... What he saw gave him reassurance.. Savannah was holding hands with Tim and never looked better... At night... he was surprised that she came out of the house... looked up at the full moon just as he was about to do the same... And for the briefest instant, he felt that they were together again.........
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OK sorry people... i just had to do that.. haha.. Dear John by Nicholas Sparks.. Shall post happier posts soon... :):)


Seeing you for the last time was just as painful as the first time i knew about it... How i wish i talked to u more... Make u laugh more because it brought me joy too... i know i will miss u... but i dont want to see u again....... silly me right.. u dont even know but here i am rambling about this... i hope this image of u in my mind fades aways fast... and i guess this is goodbye on my part..................

ok... finally bloggin.. sorry lah frens.. i was busy.. CHEYCHEYCHEY!!! do wat onli.. haha.. anyways i should be doing my rj and precription project tingy but i just totally feel like slacking...


I THINK TODAY EVERYONE TRANSFORMED TO BECOME GOOD PEOPLE.. like seriously.. actually since yesterdae ah.. so many ppl do care.. i feel so much warmth now.. haha.. OKOK FINE.. i would like to say my thanks to the guy who returned my wallet.. u suddenly became sooooo beautiful to my eyes... haha. thanks for the sweet "M's supportive GF"... :X hahaha..

OMGGGGGGGG the training program for ann is FINALLY TRULLY WITHOUT A DOUBT OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n 2moro... i realli cant wait.. i miss her n i tink we will have a WONDERFUL time 2gether gether... hehehehehe.. i wont wear dress but i wear nice nice top for u k.. wear pretty2.. :D hope we have a blast like last year...............................

suddenly listening to lovey dovey songs.. obviously NOT in love.. but just in the mood..

Dear Mr. Right... tonight im writing to you again to say that i'm still lonely without you... If only you will appear in my dreams to make mi feel better.. To remind me how it's like to be in love again.. To feel warm embraces.... Be happy and feel calmly in control with you.. SO if u decide to pop by soon, can u pls get mi curry puff frm Old Chang Kee coz im craving for it.. HAHAHA.. ok totally spoil the mood.. but wth.. my mr. right sure slacking somewhere thinking that his princess will come along.. STOP DREAMING N FASTER COME FIND MI! hahaha.. okokokok..

shall show u guys more pictures soon.. :):)

btw.. i will still save the starfish because if not, it will only bring mi pain....

yesterdae wasnt exactly eventful but OMGGGG... ok... it was.. but not because class was interesting.. it was a total boreeeeeeeeee i tell u.. Omigod!!! All sooo exciting and different.. for me might be abit weird... but wat e hell!! We'll see...................... hahaha..

saw oprah show last nyte.. OK PEOPLE.. it was because no other interesting shows was on then.. haha.. it was about like financial stuff.. there's this couple who didnt know whether they could support their own wedding.... got me thinking... wat type of wedding would i want.. okok... dont even have bf wanna talk abt marriage.. DONT WORRY PPL... i am not eager at all to get married.. but this is just a thought.... 
i think most girl's dream would be to have a BIG GRAND GRAND wedding.. like in a fanciful hotel.. with great food.. great atmosphere.. great great great cake.. beautiful lightings.. nice music and dancefloor.. haha.. ok sorry.. was in dreamland for a moment.. nvm.. shall continue this post some other time... dont realli know wat type of wedding i want anyway.. haha..

monday sending my bro off AGAIN...... AGAIN...!!!!! *sobs* sad sad lonely girl...

new crush??? NOTTTT! haha.. shall remain crush-less 4 awhile.. yea rite far... wishful thinking.. haha.. anyways... i tink passing the baton tingy within the family/close frens is GROSSSSSSS.... shall stay out of that..


i will support u all way babe.. even if u changing directions.. haha..
n i miss sofiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. :(

OMG... i cant believe my friends are soooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice and supportive... :) thanks to all the people who cheered me up or even attempted to comfort mi.. haha.. jieying.. it's ok.. it was damn cute by the way.. haha.. im TOTALLY fine now and im NOT lying.. :):):)
it took me just a statement to change my perspectives and "move on".. wah...!!! action onli ah.. skali, 1 post later... "i feel the hurt again tonight".. HAHAHAHA.. KIDDIN.. i shall fish a fish with peggy 2moro.. ok random..

the magical august date has been revealed.. *scared* okok im gonna tell u guys a secret............ i go GAGA over hugs.. so if u guys just gimme a grp hug, i'll be e happiest person on that dae.. :):) i noe.. good news to all my cheapskate" frens.. ok.. maybe just my "pineapple tart" girl... hahahahha.. KIDDIN ann.. can u guys NOT torture me then..?? i would realli appreciate it.. haha.. *smiles*

anyways.. some ppl are realli startin to annoy mi.. haha.. OK it seems like i always get irritated rite.. nvmmmmm.. i shall still say it.. CAN U PLS STOP BEING POUTY POUTY.. like seriously.. some ppl can get soooo petty over nothing.. 1 or 2 times.. i guess it's normal ah.. but more than that, then i kinda get ABITTTTT irritated.. haha.. n some ppl.. need to learn to be independant.. have some sense of doing tings on ur own pls.... not every1 is ur servant.. thanks... n n n some ppl...... need to back off abit... need to know the limits.. even though u are hot.. dont need to go ard doing that.. :):)

Tonight i feel the hurt...............................

Last night was HORRIBLE i tell u... but i have moved on... :):) super duper baby steps... if not then.. ya, watever.. haha..
i think... last night was the one of the 1st time in a long time that i drool while slping... OKOK.. NOBODY WANTS TO KNOW MY DISGUSTING SLPING HABITS.. haha.. anyways.. at this hour. im still NOT hungry.. seriously, my appetite has been going down.. FAR NO APPETITE??!?! hahaha.. that's a 1st too.. wat's up with the 1st?!?! actually, i also had my 1st kiss wif a guy yesterdae.. hahaha.. OKOK tat part totally kiddin.. cheycheychey!! *moves eyebrows fast fast*

What should i do today........ other than staring at his msn.. hahaha.. KIDDIN.. ok OBVIOUSLY poster.. then tat's all..? see how boring my life is... i need some drama.. OK not a drama that involves me again.. i tired alreadi.. maybe like some happening stuff about other ppl's love life.. i say that coz obviously i dont have one.. OK LOSERRRR.. haha.. i tink that love is really really beautiful but it isnt for me... im too much of a faint hearted person.. and COME ON AH.. if i can ever get close to a relationship then talk lah.. haha.. NOW.. confession No. 1...... nobody wants mi..... *awwww* confession No. 2..... I am actually quite tired of liking some1.. y cant they like mi 1st.. then i will totally act cool about it.. and sae "eh.. realli..? u dont lie.... *blush like MADD*.. oh.. okok.. *looks down* soooooooo...... *looks down AGAIN* hahaha.. should i set the wedding date now..?"  KKKKK.. if got guy like mi.. e 1st ting i should do is to totally like act like it's nothing new and DONT act like a crazy girl... even though they will find out sooner or later.. haha.. & WHY AM I DISCLOSING MY DATING SECRETS??? hahaha.. KIDDIN..

2moro is coaching............. OMG.. NOTHING TO LOOK 4WARD TO... ok.. mayb sabby... *blush* hahaha.. and im starting to be disgusted by some1... at 1st, i was like EEEEEWWWWWWWWWW.. then other people clarified about him/her... so i was ok.. he/she is cool.. no more of bad stuff about him/her.. then now.. WALAO!!! 1 sentence of rumour/truth, TOTALLY SPOILED HIS/HER image AGAIN.... now i look at him/her... then i like wanna run away as far as i can.. haha.. if got feelings involved.. not only will i run away.... i will knock his/her head 1st.. haha..

blog again sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon.. :):):):)

At one point.. it got soooooo sad that  i was teary. And the next, i can't stop laughing.... OBVIOUSLY i cant get him out of my mind.. but i really donno whether to go with the flow or give it a shot... i know a big part of me is saying NOOOOOO.. but the smallest part is getting in the lead ......... HOW HOW HOW.....??
Anyways... WORRIED SICK NOW... my mummy...... hope she wil really get better.. because now, i just dont know what to do.. when i told her go doctor, dowan.. eat panadol only... sometimes... ppl like mi dont even know how to take care of their own mothers since they are the ones getting all the love and attention....
Now my eyes and ears are totally sharp just in case she needs help....

I told u guys earlier that i will show u my quiz results rite.. Had to answer a series of questions in blank spaces..
HERE IT IS!!!!





LIKE SERIOUSLY... Hot guy is most important?? hahaha.. N YA... e size of my problems are the size of e squirrel... e squirrel must b pretty BIG n scary.. hahah..
yayayaya.. I PAT MY PROBLEMS.. hahah.. okkkkk.. but i tink tis is abit true... haha.. future problems, dont wory abt mi k.. the most i wil do it pat u since u are just the size of a squirrel.. haha..
I prefer fences around the house more as a sense of security and protection ah.. but if u see it that way.. then ann.. take note ah.. i wont want u turning up at my hse uninvited just coz my mummy cook that day... haha..

OH ya.. my relationship with hot guy is fragile (porcelain)... apparently.. i alreadi have a relationship with a hot guy... -.-" i dont even hav torres hp number ah.. HAHAHA.. kiddin.. and even though the hot guy is the MOST important, i will stil leave it.. haha.. be careful furture candidates.. i may be holding ur hand in the forest at 1 point then later disown u like a poor porcelain cup.. *awwwww*

OK question 9 ppl!!! stream... should be veri little water right?? so even if tempt mi wen i fasting... it wont work wif torres.. HAHAHA.. then if i walk over means like only my toes wil b wet rite??? OKOK.. yea rite....... even if i nvr splash in puddles, wil stil be wetter than just toes.. so up 2 u guys perception ah.. haha..

OK.. i am bored.. spent e rest of my early afternoon wif e ultimately bored feli.. doing nothing but just talking nonsense and of coz TORRES.. hehehe.. i shall play her guitar game tingy... here's e link... http://www.jamlegend.com/ 
it's super easy to sign up.. kills time too.. shall duel wif more "pro" ppl soon.. haha..

Went badminton wif my parents just now.. OK.. i didnt just pick up the shuttlecock k.. i did play and run ard like a stopid monkey.. haha.. then when my daddy went off.. there is tis like HOTTTT guy walk pass the court.. n UNBELIEVEABLY.. my mummy sae tat he sure is a gym/aerobics instructor... n e most funniest thingy she said was... "lets take gym/aerobic classes" with a super chicky look and started to do aerobics moves at e court... HAHAHA.. my mum is hilarious.. but of coz.... it was a JOKE..

"They are Aida (the muruku snacker), Chong (law abidding), Feli (practical), Peggy (scientic mind, ms WHY) and Far (Ms don’t know but actually knows)" -CM

Can u believe it.. chong law abiding.. haha.. AIDA.. HAHAHAHHA.. feli and peggy standard ah.. all tis smart annoying ppl.. :X hahaha..

Then she told the new advisor that she can bribe us wif muruku... i'm just afraid that 3x time a wk wifout fail, she wil bring muruku.. *gives the sick of eating too much of the same ting look* hahaha..

i did this quiz recently.. and e results were TOTALLY FUNNY.. i shall paint it and do some changes.. blog abt it soon.. :):)

POSTER!!! OMG!! I NEED TO GET RID OF FYP 1 ASAP... haha..
 

OMGGGGG!!! secret no more..... haha.. cant believe i told u ok!! im stil shocked over it... and it's NOTING... if u ever try 2 b funny, i will hired a spy to constantly stare at u wen u hav boarded e train and especially when u start playin wif UR ANNOYINGLY DISGUSTING finger... It still gives me chills by e way... hahaha.. too bad i wil have to babysit tis gegerl who acts like a kid and wants to threaten to throw her shoebag on e RAILWAY(if there is such a ting... haha..)

MUST FIND OUT PW k!! we have to figure tis out 2gether.. cheycheychey!! haha. or can just do "interviews".. HAHHAHAHA..

anyways.. i have a webcam-ing buddy who makes me so tired tat i at up lying down with all e lights closed.. haha.. but we must have a date soon ah.. *moves eyebrows fast fast* hahaha.. sorry abt e MacDonald trip.. SEOUL GARDEN kkkkkkkkkk!!! haha..
 

sometimes.. i tink people are very selfish.. or is it just me giving too much to people.. i will never know.. i just hope it pays (not like $$$$) to be nice.. i wanna be sincere and all tat.. trust mi.. i TRY my hardest all the time.. but ppl can get sooooo unappreciative sometimes.. like they see u do soo much.. then they auto take advantage of u.. ok.. it shows that im dumb rite.. but wat abt them? are they any better? are they not evil when they use mi for their own benefit..??? im soooooooooo tired of this.. i haven't get things done... so many tings to do ON MY OWN... y people dont take initiative to do work?? somemore im the type of person tat find it VERY hard/rarely ask people for help.. dont people noe tat even if i dont ask for help, doesnt mean i dont need it... dont they have a KIND AND THOUGHTFUL heart to just ask abt mi.. since i ALWAYS tink abt others... why people cant do the same for me.. ok.. maybe i must ACCEPT everyone as they are.. coz everyone is diff rite.. so not always people must tink of others like me.. they have their OWN rights to do wateva they want.. so if they wanna make use of mi, i must accept them.. if they choose not to do work, i must also accept them.. if they just plain selfish and dont wish to help me, then i must also accept them.. so ya.. the cycle goes ON AND ON abt mi being the giver.. and the others being the TAKER.. I MUST ACCEPT ALL OF THIS.. if not.. there is always another option which is being as evil as them.. only think of myself.. i come first so the people ard mi can wait.. OBVIOUSLY.. i wont b like them.. i hope im just thinking too much or just PMS-ing.. coz i cant get tings done when my mind is just drifting away and tryin to think of ways to calm myself down..

Notice that i chuck everyting 2gether.. so ppl wont pay attention to any of the tings i type.. i hope.. haha.. till next time....

*SMILES*

I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!

OMG DUMBASS.. it's not everyone else... it's u...!!!! somehow... the whole bloody world is wrong and u are right... SHUT UP ALREADI.. SOOOOO in denial... if somehow the whole world is the problem, u should just use what is left of your brain to good use.. I TOTALLY HATE IT!!!

u keep pushing the blame.. oh.. it's the person.. oh.. it's the tree.. oh.. it's e ant?? OMG!!! #$^&()_)*&^$#@!@#$%^&*()(&^$#....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u seriously tink u superstart sia.. every1 wanna noe u...  every1 wanna be wif u.. every1 tink u hot... every1 thinks u are 4eva right.... and when ppl dont tink so, they are wrong... WTH right!! is eitheru are stupid... Or the curry puff seller sold ur brains in his puffs...

I CANT STAND U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok.. im fine now.. :):):) hahahha.. so much 4 holding back.. 2 angry post in a row.. haha..

   I really cant concentrate in class 2dae.. TOTALLY cant coz i'm very very very very annoyed and irritated.. shall NOT have another angry post yet.. but everything abt tis person is PISSING mi off.. even THE VOICE.. for once in my life, i feel like boxing some1 in e face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can that person just shut up!!! OMG!! my ears are bursting.. okok.. haha.. super super exaggerating.. But... can i just have a short angry post pls...?? HAHAHAHA.. I DONT CARE.. here is goes............

a quote from a friend.....

i like only competitions/tournaments that have ___________ ppl in it.. And i HATE it when ppl boost abt everything when there is only ________ people participating. SOOOOOOO unprofessional.. RIght feli?? hahahaha..

anyways... pls let the sad birdie (curry puff) go... Let it fly freely.. plsssssssssssssssssss... haha.. 

TOTALLY DONT CARE anymore.. wateva ah BL!!! buzz off until my sense of pity returns back... :)